This was written on February 1, 2010 in one of my teacher blog about depression. Below is my sharing. Look back, i never thought i could write something like that, pretty impressive..hahahaha.....sometimes, we need to learn from the past as human are very forgetful!!
Here is my sharing:
Depressed, i believed i had it too. May be not the serious one. May be i would rather named it as LOST. This happened before i met Yoga. Why i am so sure about it, because the feeling of searching. searching of something which i don’t even know ‘it’s existence’. The uncertainty was playing the role most of the time. But it just stopped now, i am grateful.
By giving the opportunity to know yoga, know detachment, which have given me the opportunity to see the big picture of life. Which it is so true that when u look back, u r actually reacting with NOTHING. The thing which is impermanent, which is NOTHING.
When u attached with the ‘feelings’, sometimes u r not aware of it, as it is happening to u. It is the EGO of ‘me’, “I’ and “mine”…It just like swimming in the small pool with lots of people and lots of kids. U feel that it will be so crowded with so many people in such a small pool.
Without being able to see a bigger picture, u will still be wondering around in the small pool and started to mumble and complain. U will be hoping that these people to get out of the pool so that u can have a peaceful pool to swim around freely (it is the expectation). As u attached to it so much, without realizing that the pool is for public, everyone have the rights to swim there. They are enjoying the crowd except u.
If u learn to detach from it, no matter how crowded the pool it is, as it is for public, u will accept the fact (just like life, accepting the nature of life)and just enjoy ur swim and get out from the pool when u are done. You will not be swimming there forever and why u r so upset about it.
But if u r only in the process of learning the detachment,u will then need a bigger pool so that u can swim freely. Instead cursing at the people in the pool, you should look at yourself, is you!! Change the pool then. It is just like learning to be a happy person, if you are not strong enough to detach from the negative energy, then u need happy and cheerful friends. But if you are strong enough, no matter what kind of friends you have, there will be no different between good and bad friends. Back to the basic, it is YOU!!!!
Never feel bad about being strong or not strong enough. IF you dare to confront yourself for being not strong enough and the courage to face the fact, then u will be stronger when you r ready.But, a lot of people gave up and surrendered to the EGO as they dare not confront their weak moment.
That what i always believe, take good care of own heart, feed it with love, kindness, tolerance, forgiveness and detachment, and u will be in peace. Never stop believing in practicing good thoughts and good views, You are not being taken for granted, you are actually being given the benefit of seeing a bigger picture of life and happiness.
IF you never let go the EGO, how are you going to confront your weakness. Only when u see and accept your weakness, you will be able to stand up and be a stronger person and never worry about showing your weakness to others. What others said will not affect you anymore, because you know yourself and you have accepted yourself.
It will be very sad if you are not able to realize if you keep on attaching to the things which is impermanent. You will not find peace! Because your mind only fill with negative energy and you only focus on sadness. Your mind and heart have no space for peacefulness and happiness.
Let go the ego. Ego will not bring u far, only bring you suffering.Let go, let go!!!!
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