My mind in doubt and confusion, i admitted, my mind is in a MESS. I am dealing with the mind.
I keep searching, craving and wanting more for the pleasant sensation to feed and satisfy my ego, my greed and my ignorance. I thought my heart is invulnerable until i met you (in a good way).
I blamed for all the things happened in the past and i wish i could make it up for you, so you will be happier and it might be 'happily ever after' for both of us. I guess i am wrong.
You are teaching me something, your life is teaching me something and i couldn't figure it out until now. Until i learn to let go the attachment towards the desire of wanting more of the sense of satisfaction, acknowledgement, interaction, love and attention from you, from us.
I search for the answer that fit into my desire, i search for the so-called perfect answer that could feed my ego until i learn about compassionate love and detachment.
I sense all the suffers and pains you have in you. I wish i could take it all away and give you a happier life. But you are the only one who can heal your heart and soul. You are the creator of your own destiny. Feed it with LOVE, my friend. LOVE will heal you.
Thanks to you, thanks to what happened between us. I am learning another chapter of my life. I am practicing compassionate love without attachment. That's the only way to free myself from ignorance. ^_^
